The Power Station
There is "No parking" in our walk.
We may pause to refresh, to teach,
to bless.

In parking, we will miss the abundant
blessing promised for our lives and
the lives we touch
The Deer in the field
June 25 - 29, 2008
T. Travers

Proverbs 20:27

The lamp of the LORD searches the spirit of a man;
it searches out his inmost being.

June 26, 2008 Thursday 4:15 AM

As I drove to work last week, a deer walked through a corn field in the pre-dawn mist.  The
headlight beams illuminated a halo surrounding the mist enshrouded deer.

The deer froze, looked into the light, it stood and pondered what direction it would head.  
Slowly the deer lowered its head and turned its shoulder away from the light.  While bathed in
the light, the deer appeared that is was unsure to walk past the truck and reluctantly turned its
back to the light and sought the safety of the brush under the cover of darkness.

Deer in fields and on the side of the road are common occurrences here in Cheshire County,
yet this morning my heart was touched and stirred by this solitary deer turning away from the

Romans 8:27
And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes
for the saints in accordance with God's will.

My heart stirred and it was not at ease.  I prayed for clarification and discernment for why this
morning, this observation touched my heart.

Psalm 139:23
Search me, O God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts

The Lord is searching my heart, and yes I am being tested.  He is challenging me, as he does
each of us.

In his searching, I, like the deer lowered my head and turned my shoulder away from the
embrace of His light.  He showed me, that there was a part of my heart I refused to release to
Him.  There was a part of my heart I want hidden from Him.  There was a heart still filled with
pride and arrogance that I claimed as my own, not His.  There is part of me that wants to be

My heart was not settled.   

How much of myself must I surrender to our Lord, God?

Lord, do you want all of me?

Lord, do I lose all of me to you?

Psalm 42: 11
Why are you downcast, O my soul?
Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God,
for I will yet praise him,
my Savior and my God

Psalm 43:5 Why are you downcast, O my soul?
Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God,
for I will yet praise him,
my Savior and my God

Then I began to understand

Psalm 42
1 As the deer pants for streams of water,
so my soul pants for you, O God.
2 My soul thirsts for God, for the living God.
When can I go and meet with God?
3 My tears have been my food
day and night,
while men say to me all day long,
"Where is your God?"

Psalm 43
3 Send forth your light and your truth,
let them guide me;
let them bring me to your holy mountain,
to the place where you dwell.

4 Then will I go to the altar of God,
to God, my joy and my delight.
I will praise you with the harp,
O God, my God

God is preparing us for His purpose in our lives.  His purpose cannot fully be realized as long
as we are walking our own walk and have not completely surrendered ourselves to him.

We can stand in the light, repent, confess our sin, ask for forgiveness for our sin(s) when he
searches our heart, or like the deer in the pre-dawn darkness reluctantly turn away from the
light and head back to familiar surrounding under the cover of darkness
For me, I went to God’s altar, bowed before our God, confessed my sins to Him, repented from
my sins, and asked for His forgiveness.  Turning over more of my heart to Him I was slain in
the spirit, I was dropped to my knees before His presence with arms lifted up, the spirit filled
me.  He imparted the “Victory” we have in Jesus Christ.

May we all seek God’s light.  May our hearts be revealed for His glory.